Monday, March 22, 2010

Shape Up or Ship Out

Yesterday I attended St. Paul's Episcopal for Sunday service. As I sat in the pews looking up at the beautiful alter, I started thinking about the very important role chrch has taken in my life over the years. For sometime after coming to the States, I did not attend church- about 2 years. Looking back, I was lost. I was without a caause, I was living a futile life. I wasn't healthy (figuratively and literary) and I was not happy with my self. My relationship with myself had somewhat gone sour.

When I made that deliberate effort to ask my supervisor at the time to give me Sundays off becase I want to go to church, I did not realize the good it would do me. That first Sunday at St. Mary's Episcopal was the begining of a rich, healthy life. I LOVE LIFE!

It took sometime before I got to the point of "I cannot live without going to church". I missed some Sundays but with time I got there. Sunday service has since become the highlight of my week. I really, like really, love going to church and I wouldn't miss it for nothing.

Yesterday I went back to feeling aweful about not having found a job yet. I called my mum (what would I do without her) ad she reminded me of God's promises and the godness of the Lord. I felt encouraged and less afraid.

I started thinking of life changing moments that I've had so far. They are few (I think) and they have required prayer and fasting. I now call them my SHAPE UP OR SHIP OUT moments.

I feel like Heavenly Father is preparing me for something even GREATER that will reqiure MUCH GREATER faith and trust in Him.

Why do I think that?

Progressively, my SHAPE UP MOMENTS have become harder and harder. No longer do I get what I ask of Him by a simple prayer and maybe 1 day of fasting. No. Lately I need to dedicate more time to prayer and fasting. I am not complaining tho, don't get me wrong. I think my faith has progressively become stronger and I seek the WORD more now for encouragement and direction.
I am thankful for the everyday lessons that He is giving me.

POLEPOLE a Swahili word for SLOWLY.

Take it slowly, live life simply and slowly. Take time to smell the roses. Appreciate what I already have, not to be in a rush to get more.
Life, as in nature, requres us to go slowly.

Try climbing a mountain quickly. If nasea won't kill you, thin air and massive headaches will.


That's how I now see life. It unfolds slowly by slowly for me. 24 hours at a time, a minute at a time, a second at a time.

When you're driving on that dark road, you trust that your headlights will be sufficient to get you to your destination. That they will guide you.

In my life, GOD is my "headlights". His strength is sufficient to take me safely to my destination.