Monday, November 17, 2008

A little introduction

I'm a 23 year old girl, or woman?? I was born and raised in Kenya and now I live in the US- mainly for college.
I moved to the US when I was 19. Yes, sometimes I wonder if my parents love me at all. No I'm joking, they only wish the best for me and want me to have a better life. It has been a tumultuous journey but I could not have it any other way. I have learned a lot, matured a huge deal and been through relationships.
Speaking of relationships. I'm single. Part of it has to do with the fact that I ended up in a podunk little town or state (I can't tell the difference) and the people are as conservative as they come. Very few care to venture outside the race. And of my race, there are only but a few, who almost always or inevitably venture outside the race. Ok, I'm not going to cry about this- its not a biggie anymore. The other reason as I recently discovered, I have been Americanized! Yes, I can't believe it either. African guys don't date me the way I want to be dated. As my friend eloquently put it- "sweetheart, you've been Americanized. That is not how African guys date." She was right. I'll tell you more about my relationships here, stay with me.
Anyway, this blog will document my life in the states, (I'll try and add some of my earliest memories of the US), my relationships, my career, my aspirations and my life in general. Feel free to add your comments- be gentle though- I'm fragile, and hurt easily.
Welcome to my little world, they know me here ;-)


First off, I stopped believing and setting new year resolutions after years of not fulfilling them and being left with feelings of inadequacy. I'm hard on myself, I know, but that's what keeps me going.
I instead have birthday resolutions. Last year my birthday resolutions were to break up with my boyfriend at the time. He had filled my life with so much drama. He had to go. Then I decided to get dreadlocks! Yes, I had one of those feminist, breast taping, bra burning moments. My idea was to take back control of my life from this boy whom I had unknowingly given full control over my life.
This year, one of my b-day resolutions was to write more. I like to write. I'm an introvert and most times my brain is on overdrive with thoughts, ideas and even memories. I though it'd be a good idea if I let these thoughts out. A blog would be nice.
Its now over six months after my birthday and I have created my first blog ever. Facebook was a big one for me. I'm internet shy believe it or not. This evening as I sat in my religion class (I go to a parochial university and so we have to take rel. classes), I started writing a poem. I poured out my feelings on that piece of paper that contained half class notes, half my thoughts.
I got home and I was catching up with one of my favorite bloggers and I decided to just do it (nike).
Here I am. I hope this goes well. I hope to keep you and I entertained with my thoughts, I hope we have a good time in here.