Monday, December 21, 2009

He is always near, He loves you.

The last 5 days have been very hard for me. I had a pressing need and I was deeply troubled. It was one of those things that at first you say- "I would die if it doesn't work out in my favor". I cried, sobbed, wailed, called on God, asked Him to have mercy on me. Then I tried to address the problem too quickly, and I fell flat on my face. The stress was 10 times worse. I cried, cried, cried, cried again and then cried some more.

"Why me?"I kept asking. "Why me?" At first I said to myself that God is punishing me. And then after saying that I couldn't handle it. I cannot live with the thought that God is punishing me. Oh how I wanted to un-think that thought. It's interesting how such thoughts stay with you no matter how much you try to cover them up with other things.

So, what ever happened to me?

Notice that I refer to the problem in the past. It's behind me now, thanks be to God! The Lord taught or reminded me of a few things during this agonizing time.

God is good to those that seek Him
Blessed are those whose hope is in Him, the God of Jacob.
His steadfast love never ceases.
His faithfulness endures throughout all generations.
He never sleeps.
He cares.The battle belongs to the Lord.
He knows my need even before I speak it.
God is near, He is with us, He is in us.

I read in my devotional that we cannot influence God's love. This was very profound and resonated with me. I was trying to influence God's decision in answering my prayer by telling Him to remember the 'good' things that I had done. I was really desperate and at that time I thought I could persuade Him by reading through my resume of 'good' deeds. "Remember how I helped so and so. remember how I serve you in church, remember this and that etc."

You cannot influence God's Love. He chooses to love you because He himself is Love. He loves you because He is He!

Deuteronomy 7:7-9

"The LORD did not set his affection on you and choose you because you were more numerous than other peoples, for you were the fewest of all peoples. 8 But it was because the LORD loved you and kept the oath he swore to your forefathers that he brought you out with a mighty hand and redeemed you from the land of slavery, from the power of Pharaoh king of Egypt. 9 Know therefore that the LORD your God is God; he is the faithful God, keeping his covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who love him and keep his commands."

His faithfulness endures throughout all generations. God is not a man that He should lie.

Put all of your hope in the Lord. He blesses those that put their hope in Him.

Psalms 146:5

"Blessed is he whose help is the God of Jacob, whose hope is in the LORD his God."

The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases, his mercies never come to an end, they are new every morning, Great is His faithfulness.

The Lord doesn't willingly afflict or grieve the sons of men. He is Love and would never destroy us. He is love, and that would be going against His nature. His anger lasts only for a moment but His Love will abound.

Psalms 30:5

"For his anger lasts only a moment, but his favor lasts a lifetime; weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning."

Lamentations 3: 22, 33

"Because of the Lord's great Love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail."
"For He does not willingly bring affliction or grief to the children of men."

The Lord fought for me and rescued me. I will then praise His name and proclaim of His glory. The Lord is good to those that seek him with a broken heart. I will not put my hope in people, nor in prices or the highly and well connected people. Every good thing comes from the Lord and it is better to wait on Him.

Psalms 30:11-12

"You turned my wailing into dancing; you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy, that my heart may sing to you and not be silent. O LORD my God, I will give you thanks forever."

It is my prayer that I will continue to seek the Lord in everything that I do, and to trust him with all my heart.

I write all these passages on here because they gave me comfort in my time of need. God's word was like a soothing oil for my afflicted soul. I found great comfort in these passages and others that I haven't included here.
I write them down in my blog partly to help anyone who might feel downtrodden and anyone who doesn't feel that the Lord is near. Also I write all these to remind me of His great love and that He is always near.

Again. Thanks be to God!