So last night I was listening to some good Kenyan music. Mostly acapella from the group Pentamony. I was crazy about them back when I was in high school. Well, myself and other several thousand teenage girls.
Today I changed the title of my blog. From "Strength of a Woman" to "We sometimes know, and then not".
That is essentially my life. I sometimes know and then not!
Plain and simple.
I don't like it when people ask me what my plans are for the future. I really don't know. I have a general map, like ball-park figure of what I envision my future to be like, but the intricate details are not worked out yet.
I took up LIVING ONE DAY AT A TIME earlier this year. Yes, things were hazy but by Grace I came out ok.
I'm watching the Lifetime movie network "Marry Me" with Lucy Liu.
Silent knowing...
How I wish that I was in that place.
Even though my life has quieted down a huge deal, I still would like a silent, quiet place. Not just the physical and interactional quietness (if such a word exists) but emotional, and spiritual quietness.
i would prefer to have only the Spirit of the Most High speak.
and just have the rest be quiet.
I wish for silent knowing.
Silent knowing.
i don't want to brag, or complain.
i want to revel in the present.
The everyday blessings i see.
and silently, quietly, give THANKS.
Silent knowing.
It's a COMFORT.
knowing that HE controls everything.
knowing that i don't have to WORRY.
Silent knowing.
It's knowing that there's a PROMISE.
knowing that it will be ALL worth it.
knowing that i will appreciate the pain.
Silent knowing.
It's giving thanks.
It's celebrating that not yet realized victory.
Silent Knowing.
It's FAITH.
So the Mixer event was last night!
I was pretty stoked about it, actually I'm pretty stoked about how it turned out. There were a lot of people and they had a really good time. I'm so glad that we decided to do it. There were a lot of guys, more than girls. I think the ratio was like 2 boys to 1 girl. Refreshing huh?
The guys seemed to have a good time and I liked that very much. The caliber of guys that came was top notch yet very down to earth. They did not seem to mind the African girls in the group.
Most people actually thought that this was something that had been going on for a while. They were asking when the next one would be and if we had the Mixer every month. It was so humbling to see how well it was received.
So the girls are planning to do a New Year's bash. It's still under consideration and we're yet to hear from people about their thoughts on that.
I'm very thankful to God for blessing us with such a good inaugural event.
Have a nice week everyone.
xox
So today is Saturday of thanksgiving weekend. I stayed home really just chillaxing. I did not do anything very important or life changing. I've been working on The Mixer (I'll talk about it later on) and watched the last 30 minutes of the BYU- UTAH game. Sadly UTAH won :(. BYU had a good lead until the last 5 minutes of the game when UTAH scored a touch down.
So now I'm having a quiet evening inside, drinking a beer after having eaten left overs from yesterday's dinner, and well, telling you about it.
Let me start with yesterday's dinner. It was LEGEN....wait for it...DARY! Yes, true Barney Stinson style. I've been watching too much of "How I met your mother".
My friends came thru last night. I cooked all day but seeing all those faces enjoying the food made it all worth it. I had 11 people come through and we had a great time. Everyone got along very well and the Lakers- Jazz game went according to plan. Yes, the Jazz won. It was AWESOME!
Conversation was easy and I really enjoyed myself. The everflowing wine also made me quite the happy camper.
I like to entertain and love it when people come together and just have a good time.
Thank you Lord for giving us a good evening.
SO
The MIXER.
True to my nature, I like to get people together.
The story starts....
One Sunday evening I invited the girls to my place for an evening of food, wine and conversation. It was another one of those LEGENDARY evenings that seemed like an arranged sit-in. Everyone had such an amazing time that noone wanted to leave.
We started talking about how rough it is dating in Salt Lake City. Honestly, and I'm not exerggerating, it is exhausting! We talked about how the bars and clubs have lost their appeal and how we would much rather stay in on Saturday nights. Then we felt bad because, what good comes from staying in, really? So we devised plans of how we were gonna go where single people are. We arranged to go to the Real Salt Lake soccer game, and other exciting things.
My friend Liz and I started talking about getting all the single people together in one place; because I felt like single people were "missing" each other. Let me explain. The single girl will go to the bookstore (true story lol) and the guy will go to the bar. Or, the guy will go to the soccer game and the girl will go to Home Depot. You get my flow?
So that's how the MIXER was born. We want to create an event where all the single people will converge in one place and no inhibitions or reservations. Everyone in there will be single.
So the plans have been in the works for two months now. Next weekend is the big day. December 4th. We hope to get as many diverse singles as possible. The MIXER is an exclusive event for only young single professionals. Absolutely no bums allowed. We wanted to go a step up from bars and clubs so we preselected our guests on the basis of professionalism.
I really hope and pray that it goes well.
I will update next weekend after the mixer to tell you how great it was.
Wish us all luck!
Peace!
So after a 7 month hiatus I'm back.
The BREAK was good. It did me so much good!
End of March I finally got aJOB holaaaaa
I work at ALS Laboratory Group in Salt lake City. I found the job on craigslist and immediately called Kristine to ask her if I should apply. That girl has been with me thru it all.
Of course she yelled HELL YEAH! Ok no, she's much more refined, so she said that I should get on it and apply that minute.
I was and still am so grateful to have a job. I had become a depressed mess before I got the job.
My workmates are fun. Especially now that I've made friends there. It's awesome. I go back to my saying, wise saying, if you like/get along with the people you work with, you can pretty much work anywhere.
My job entails Industrial Hygiene sample preparation. I'm surrounded by so many filters, wipes, paint chips and soil samples. I prep them for trace metals analysis. Recently though I've started analyzing for Lead by Flame Atomic Absorption (FLAA).
Totally unnecessary info but I couldn't resist to share it with yall.
My boyfriend and I ended things :( double sad
I'm ok now- totally. Like really ok. For a while there I was SAD??
Early summer was just a weird time. So much went down (the break-up being one of them).
A lot of HURT and heartache.
I took sometime to heal from all that, and to detoxify from that nastiness.
I'm cool now. Or at least I think so.
I'm grateful for everyday blessings, and I look forward to more blessings!
Peace.
Yesterday I attended St. Paul's Episcopal for Sunday service. As I sat in the pews looking up at the beautiful alter, I started thinking about the very important role chrch has taken in my life over the years. For sometime after coming to the States, I did not attend church- about 2 years. Looking back, I was lost. I was without a caause, I was living a futile life. I wasn't healthy (figuratively and literary) and I was not happy with my self. My relationship with myself had somewhat gone sour.
When I made that deliberate effort to ask my supervisor at the time to give me Sundays off becase I want to go to church, I did not realize the good it would do me. That first Sunday at St. Mary's Episcopal was the begining of a rich, healthy life. I LOVE LIFE!
It took sometime before I got to the point of "I cannot live without going to church". I missed some Sundays but with time I got there. Sunday service has since become the highlight of my week. I really, like really, love going to church and I wouldn't miss it for nothing.
Yesterday I went back to feeling aweful about not having found a job yet. I called my mum (what would I do without her) ad she reminded me of God's promises and the godness of the Lord. I felt encouraged and less afraid.
I started thinking of life changing moments that I've had so far. They are few (I think) and they have required prayer and fasting. I now call them my SHAPE UP OR SHIP OUT moments.
I feel like Heavenly Father is preparing me for something even GREATER that will reqiure MUCH GREATER faith and trust in Him.
Why do I think that?
Progressively, my SHAPE UP MOMENTS have become harder and harder. No longer do I get what I ask of Him by a simple prayer and maybe 1 day of fasting. No. Lately I need to dedicate more time to prayer and fasting. I am not complaining tho, don't get me wrong. I think my faith has progressively become stronger and I seek the WORD more now for encouragement and direction.
I am thankful for the everyday lessons that He is giving me.
POLEPOLE a Swahili word for SLOWLY.
Take it slowly, live life simply and slowly. Take time to smell the roses. Appreciate what I already have, not to be in a rush to get more.
Life, as in nature, requres us to go slowly.
Try climbing a mountain quickly. If nasea won't kill you, thin air and massive headaches will.
It's like DRIVING ALONG A DARK ROAD.
That's how I now see life. It unfolds slowly by slowly for me. 24 hours at a time, a minute at a time, a second at a time.
When you're driving on that dark road, you trust that your headlights will be sufficient to get you to your destination. That they will guide you.
In my life, GOD is my "headlights". His strength is sufficient to take me safely to my destination.
